Doctor's Visit

So some of you are probably wondering about my Doctor's visit! Well, it went GREAT! The nurse commented, "have you SEEN your weight chart?????" I smiled and said, "not here at the doctor's office!" She laughed and showed me and then asked what I have been doing, and congratulated me on my success. When my doctor saw me, he said, "You look Great! Are you still doing the diet?" He commented that I was an all star and He wrote in my chart, "She's an All Star." After having checked my blood pressure, he said, "It's perfect! Back to normal! You've taken back two years of your life in the last 6 months. You don't need a surgery referral now :), Don't let this change who you are on the inside though."

I was so happy I did a little dance in my heart. Wow, I've taken back two YEARS of my life, just in 6 months! Hopefully I can take back another few years just by sticking it out a few more months. The goal of one day being able to have kids, is getting closer and closer. Goals I never thought I'd every achieve are finally looking more realistic.

Sometimes I really really really want to give up. I want to throw the towel in and say, "ForGET it." I cannot do this anymore. Work has been so stressful. I have dealt with investigations, police station trips, emergency changes in placements, and serious occurrence after serious occurrence. I feel like I just need to take a moment, breath, book a hotel and sleep for 2 days.

In those moments, that I want to quit my job, throw in the towel, I am amazed at the grace and self-control God supplied me with to not quit the diet, not to take the cookie, not to eat the Christmas stuffing, and pumpkin pie and mashed potatoes. It's almost surreal. It can't be my doing that I have lasted this long. I heave a heavy sign. Sleep will come, I will feel less stressed, life will go on.

 When my foster sons says, "I Lub you too", when my husband hugs me tight, when my sister calls and encourages me, when I see my foster parents succeeding in connecting with hurting children, when I see the fresh snow falls and the twinkle of the stars, I look up and say, Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. I am so blessed.